Clutching his application to resettle in the United States, Thakur Prasad Mishra hesitated at the door of the UN field office in southeastern Nepal.
The fight to uncensor Bhutan's media had left Mishra - founder of the first newspaper dedicated to the 108,000 displaced Lhotshampas, Nepali-speakers from Bhutan - torn between his growing audience of refugees in Nepal and the security and opportunity for a normal life in the United States. But with communist militias fracturing civility in the refugees' community, he realized resettlement was his only option. To make matters worse, the closest neighbors and all of their garbage, animals, family talks, and disease-spreading coughs lived inches away in identically constructed huts. Privacy, Mishra says, did not exist.